A Little Pick-You-Up

I made the terrible mistake of drinking myself stupid for years.
Thus, my life struggles of working harder now rather than smarter.
I would hope that all you out there that struggle with some addiction get over it before the age of 30, because it's a terrible slog about 40. Residual effects are real, and painful. And, not to sound like a broken record, horrible to get over.

I suggest this for people who are suffering addiction...understand that people understand. I know...a lot of us come out as judgey. What an addict thinks is that they don't want to be or deserve to be judged by anyone. Which they really should be. A person with a mental disorder doesn't fully comprehend the full effect of their actions on others. I would treat addiction the same. Most people have pushed their friends away because of it. Or perceived that their friends would stop being their friends because they see addiction as weakness. Well, some will. Especially if they were in the trenches with you in the worst grip of it. Be strong. It's not easy, and won't be for a long time.

Lately there's an epidemic of middle class dying of meth or heroin overdose. This is because painkillers/opioids are an epidemic. Doctors prescribed and patient continues with something similar. I can't begin to imagine what that darkness must feel like. A lot of people, no matter what background they come from, have suffered over this. It sneaks up on you since it's pre-approved by doctors. Remember that all addiction is the same. If you can't handle drinking, you won't handle drugs.

I don't mean to beat a dead horse, but take care of yourself as much as you can. Rest, and genuinely let your body...dissolve into your bed. Feel the comfort of relaxing your body. Allow your mind not to worry or wonder what's next. The stress creates tension. And tension creates deeper pain. Center yourself into pleasant memories. Embrace those that are good for you. And be excited by what's in front.