The Walk Of Shame

One of the reasons why I spit on Hollywood, and in this case on it's stars now is simply because they congratulate themselves way too often over nothing but bad behavior. I use to love the stories about making movies, but slowly they became heart-wrenching stories of abuse. I've not conducted myself in that fashion, because...I value the craft. What was disappointing was that others had such success in acting and directing, it seemed one almost had to be that self-destructive to be...the best. Richard Dreyfus, Dustin Hoffman, Warren Beatty...the list goes on.
It doesn't surprise me that Hollywood has decided NOT to get rid of stars who have been accused of sexual abuse. And I get it. They wouldn't have a sidewalk if they did. Because actors/directors and anyone really connected to the arts have some massive hole of mental illness that may never be cured. It takes a lot of rejection, hurt, self-esteem issues and so forth to come to Hollywood to get in front of a camera and shine. Marilyn Monroe destroyed herself over it. Though some could argue this place was the only place that would accept her mental illness (also politics). These people here are awful human beings. They aren't the mirror to society you typically see because everyone is pretty cold. They don't see your point of view nor pretend to. Their stories are always much more interesting than yours. And they pretty much ignore philosophical conversations. That would mean they would delve deep into their miserable childhoods. In short, they're shallow.

But, as a young guy trying to make movies to mean something to people...movies meant something to me. I don't consider this a cynical thought as time has proven it to be true. But when ugly people meet beautiful people and the ugly people have the power, it's a no-brainer to abuse this power. I would. Thankfully I don't have that authority. Though, obviously I make conscious effort not to hurt others as I do my best to tell my tales.

A friend once expressed to me that whenever we did photo shoots I didn't have a mashy gropey guy face on. To me, art is light and shapes. Beautiful women are beautiful. And my attraction to them is that they see themselves as such. Corny as it may sound, many models I've worked with don't know what they look like on camera. And my job is to show potential.
It seems the reality to a LOT of people getting into entertainment wasn't to explore deeper spiritual meaning, but to use it as a gateway to abuse. And to me...that is the real tragedy.